tehlup ♥

Edit#2: Shit now I feel like I’m a total idiot. I’m really sorry. I love you. It really hurts when I see the 2 of you together. Ugh, k. Bye.

Edit: Okay now I understand, it’s my fault. I get it. So I’m sorry. I really am. Bye.

Sometimes being a friend is rather hard I must say.

Maybe all along it was my fault. It was solely my fault that made you come to this conclusion that I don’t really want to friend you any longer. But sometimes, people make mistakes right. Mistakes are unavoidable. So if you think that giving me the cold shoulder and all would really help in this friendship of ours, you must be really wrong. Because, I know, it has always been you who’d made up for the past few times when we argued. This time, I tried, but you didn’t really care. Why? Partly due to the fact that you’ve found a greater and better friend than me. Is she really better than me? 2 years of close friendship with you, compared to 6 months of friendship with her? Well, I respect your decision.

But then it makes me wonder how bad a friend I am right? I, not being able to make up with you. I guess you’re just not giving me a chance at all. You’ve found a closer companion, and you like it. So you ignore. And then you say I’m the one at fault. Okay, fine. I don’t really get it now.

Trying to make up with you can be as easy as ABC, but it’s on your part whether you want to make up with me right? If you don’t, then I’ve got nothing to do about our friendship anymore. I’ll just wash my hands off you and your childishness. You make everything seem like it’s my fault, not yours. But maybe, just maybe, it’s partly your fault too? Can’t you do a little self-reflecting. By ignoring me, does it do any good at all in the first place? I don’t think so. Unless you want the pity of others, you want other people to think that it’s fully my fault on this broken friendship. But I guess you’re not that type of person. But come to think about it again, maybe you are. You’ve changed so much within a year, it’s scary. You may not know, but it’s just scary. You were once so cheerful and innocent, but now, you’ve changed. It’s probably from the friends that you have around you, and you don’t notice it.

So I may sound like I hate you now right? In fact, a little bit of me thinks so too. I think I’m just pissed with myself.

But, I just want to tell you that I miss you, and I want to be friends with you again. Life without you is miserable and I feel damn shit.

I’m sorry, really sorry.

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On the brighter side, Bestfriend is always still the best when I’m down/out and happy :)