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Feeling down isn’t exactly the way I want to feel right now.

Got rather down last night, after something happened. Sat in the toilet, and just started crying. Bestf didn’t pick up my call, and well, oh nevermind. Thought through things, happenings, all the good times we had together, and I want our friendship to continue on.  So you ask me whether we’re still friends or not, I’d say yes.

Sorry if my words hurt you, sorry if I ignored you, sorry if I made you feel left out, sorry if I didn’t talk to you, sorry if I made you feel inferior, sorry if my actions made you unhappy, sorry for doubting you, sorry for making you feel that we’ve drifted apart, sorry for everything that I’ve done.  I’m just truly really deeply sorry.

I really don’t know what to do. All I can do is say sorry. And sorry.

I really miss the times we had together, all the sms-es that we’ve sent each other, all the study sessions, all the times we went out together, all the times leaving class halfway to just spot someone, all the times spent in the toilet, all the times spent taking pictures together, all the times we laughed so heartily, all the times we shared jokes, all the times we talked about our eyecandies, all the times all the times all the times.

I miss you.

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Bestf called me yesterday just to say ‘cheer up’ in Japanese. How sweet. :) Plus, she messaged me today too, since I didn’t feel like talking yesterday at all. I love bestf, all the way.

And today was rather okay since I went out with Amanda in the afternoon. Bought slippers, then off to cemetery, then off to Parkway, then off to cemetery again, then homed. 147 busride made me down again. :( So lonely and cold and such a long ride home. Ugh.

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I think I’m just too paranoid. I think I’m thinking too much. Maybe all will be fine very soon. Maybe just maybe.

But.

Nevermind.

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KARIN MUST BE HAPPY OMG SHE MUST BE HAPPY. SHE NEEDS TO STUDY HER CHEMISTRY, SHE MUST NOT LET HER MOOD BE AFFECTED. HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY.

Doesn’t work. :(

Haha nevermind, I’m feeling better now. At least for now lah!

I shall study chemistry tonight/morning. Karin must be motivated to study! :D

Haha.

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I’VE GOT A HAPPY FRIEND :D Yay, haha.

I sound happy already right?

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Okay pointless post… -___-